So many wrong turns, finally I went right.


Some moments define us, some moments break us, some moments make us stronger, some moments can bring us to our knees feeling grateful, some moments will build character and some moments help us to strengthen our consistency.

What builds a life full of trust for yourself and others? Consistency. If you are consistent with your self, your daily actions and with others you will know what you can and can’t provide for others.

And the same goes for the people you surround your self with. Are they consistent? If they are not consistent with themselves or in their daily actions they will not be able to be consistent to you or for you in your relationship. If you do not love yourself there is no way you can love and provide for others. The work begins with the self and unlike a drop of water which loses its identity when it joins the ocean, we do not lose our being in the society in which we live. Life is independent. We are born not for the development of the society alone, but for the development of self. Do things that will bring you to your higher self so you may find your life purpose.

As I bobbed on my surfboard waiting for a set, I admired the beauty of my favorite surf spot. Today’s crystal clear water allowed me to see the ripples in the sand below my surfboard and this impression reminded me of a yogic term called samskara.

As the tides change, just as daily occurrences in our lives can, so do these ripples in the sand. We are born with a karmic inheritance of mental and emotional patterns—known as samskaras—through which we cycle over and over again during our lives as they play out like a movie script between different characters and scenes.

Samskaras are individual influences, impressions, actions and ideas; collectively, our samskaras make up our conditioning and consciousness. Repeating samskaras reinforces them, this is the consistency I’m referring to. Once you have created a groove (samskara) it can be difficult to resist and just as the ocean creates these grooves / sand bars in the ocean, this is what helps to create a wave as the tide comes in. A wave is energy and the samskara helps direct this energy in a positive or negative way.

In a surfer’s world, some waves are good and some waves are bad. The bad waves can have life threatening consequences if you paddle for them just as samskaras can also have a negative consequence in our decisions such as in the self-lacerating mental patterns that underlie low self-esteem and self-destructive relationships. Negative samskaras are what hinder positive evolution and consciousness. Positive selfless acts, meditation, yoga, being consistent in your life and living your purpose can help smooth out the ripples in the sand, aka the samskara bringing you closer to contentment; santosha.

October is the rainiest month in Nicaragua so today is a blessing, not a cloud in sight as the reflection from the hot bright sun danced off the surface of the ocean I was in Mother Nature’s true spot light.The hills lush with green vegetation is a reminder that if you consistently nourish your soul and make matters of the spirit part of your every day life the negative patters of your samskara will start to diminish.

Feeling extremely grateful for this moment even though it was a crowded day in the water, my thoughts dissipated and my eyes glanced to the horizon spotting a sparkling wave approaching in the distance. I started to paddle. Now, sandwiched between two local rippers, I found myself together in the peak with one of the other surfers. The peak is the closest point to where the wave will start to break giving that surfer the priority.

Normally I would back off and give the wave to the local but something in this moment didn’t allow for that today. After all, I’m a local now too. The guy sharing the peak with me yelled over me to his friend in Spanish to take the wave which meant his friend would be technically dropping in on me, this fueled my ego. Sometimes you need ego for survival but it is knowing when you need it and when not to use it, and without a second thought I went for it, taking the wave and owning it as they both backed off. Thankfully I managed to ride that sucker all the way. Yesssss! A defining moment representative of my consistency and progress in Nicaragua.

In life there will always be people right by your side ready to challenge your consistency which can make you question your confidence in your own self. You can either take control of your every day actions and own it, learn to carry the universe or be crushed by it.

What ever you choose, just be consistent. In order to find your life purpose one must be willing to work on themselves and learn how to be consistent in their own life before they can be consistent in others. Do you keep making the same mistakes or keep repeating the same negative patterns? Do the self work and observe your own patters and then make a mental note to change the negative pattern to a healthier positive consistent pattern.

Be consistent in your search if you seek something better for your life. If you want to be a surfer, surf consistently. If you want to live a healthy life then be consistent in your every day choices that defines health. If you make a mistake, be consistent in your compassion for yourself and also for others.

Especially, be consistent with loving yourself.


Insightful Reflection: My Shadow Does Yoga Too!


It’s only once we face our shadow can we shine light in to those dark areas where we need to grow. It’s like trying to grow a garden without any sunlight, it becomes moldy and dank. Even if we plant seeds of intention, we must allow the light to hit areas within the dark corners of our soul to discover what is keeping us from our highest potential.

Just another typical morning in the jungle I stumbled out my front door with my yoga mat in hand, iPhone in the other. Unrolling my mat the most beautiful star in the sky started to make an appearance as it played peak a boo with the roof top of my house.  The sun’s delicate light and the sounds of the jungle brought me to my knees. Birds singing from the heart and monkeys arguing over space stopped me from putting on my usual playlist as I came into child’s pose. Setting my intention and being grateful for what the next moment was going to bring I stared into the darkness behind my eye lids and started to match each inhale to each exhale.

Now flowing as I saluted the sun each ray warmed me to the core. Gracefully stepping into warrior II with my back to the rising sun, it’s beautiful light gave my shadow life. WOW. Holding warrior II, I noticed my shadow does yoga too! A unique epiphany on dark and light and particularly shadows arose during my practice as my mind flickered in between thought and space.


We all know our shadow contains things we are not proud of nor do we want others to know about our deep dark secrets and many times we are too ashamed to even face these reflections. Without self understanding, without knowing exactly what our shadow is made of means we can hurt others if we don’t have a strong sense of who we are and why we do the things we do. Getting to know your shadow is key to spotting traumas or life events that are lingering in your energy field.

Moment by moment we change. Change is the only constant in our reality. If you are truly living in the moment, you have the opportunity to grow and change each moment. You are not the same person you were five minutes ago which means you have another chance to become better. The past does not exist, quit living there!!!! The future does not exist, quit trying to live there!! It is only this moment, right here, right now that exists. If we start living in this consciousness, moment to moment, we can grow into our highest potential so we can create the life we are meant to be living.


When we can’t see the bigger picture, we are not able to respond accordingly to the people in our lives or events. What good is it to the universe and to our universal family to have a planet filled with a bunch of souls walking around like zombies without self understanding or don’t know why they are here or what they are supposed to be doing?

When we make best use of our energy we can discover our life purpose. When we work in accordance to our energy we can make the best expression of our personal power. Doing what you love and determining what your passions are can also lead you to your life purpose. Our behavior patterns are the architects of our soul. These physiological emotional patterns contain light and shadow properties that make up the foundation of our soul making each one of us unique because we have all experienced difference events and people in our lives. Getting to know your own personal blue print can lead you to a profound understanding of your purpose.

How do you find out your personal patterns you ask? Well you have to do the dirty work. Just like an architect, first you have to go out and walk the property of your soul, dig around, face your shadow. Basically identify what patterns you have been repeating in your life. Once we recognize what our patterns are we can learn how to break them and transform these emotions into spiritual gold. If you keep repeating the same patterns and the outcome continually brings you pain, you need to identify the pattern and understand the deeper lesson behind it. No problem can be solved from the same consciousness that created it. Difficult times can help us grow by first asking yourself, “what lesson is my soul trying to learn?” If you look at each situation as a lesson to your growth you can see why you have attracted certain people and situations to your life.

You are the creator of your own life, the sooner you realize this the sooner you can step into your personal power that will bring you ultimate freedom and pure happiness, Santosha, contentment. Be the vibration that will attract what you want. We already manifest our life each moment but by raising your frequency you can manifest that which is exactly what your soul is seeking. Once you remove the clutter and look at the core you will find your truth. Truth is truth, and this is your pure authenticity that needs to be shared with the world.

If this all seems overwhelming, then start by identifying your passions. What do you love to do? Or if you’ve slipped beyond even knowing what you love to do try to remember your childhood and what you loved back then. Once you can align your energy with your passions this true vibration of your soul is an internal compass that will guide you in the right direction.


A few songs from my yoga playlist.. music inspires my soul and generates movement that heals from within.











Mad Crazy Love


Because we live in a world that loves conditionally. Mad Crazy Love is a rare feeling that is romantic. Yet incomplete. Incomplete of society’s approval.

I could see for miles,
and miles and miles,
in between sets.


It came rushing in like a powerful unstoppable wave,
unconscious and insane,
energy everywhere.

Caught off guard,
my heart was disarmed,
like a surfer being sent through the wave washing machine.

Is this what love feels like?
A surge of intense electrifying energy,
spinning me around, and around and around…

Like a thick-lipped wave,
heavy, a meanness,
curling over with the potential of crushing hearts.

The thunderous sound as it broke on the shore,
was Mother Natures way of saying,
“This moment is real.”

This is what love sounds like,
love is a feeling.
The energy dissipated.

The tide kissed the sand gently,
as it rolled back and forth.
Can you hear that? The sound of the small rolling pebbles…

Comforting whispers of love
That’s when I knew,
I shouldn’t be out here all alone.

I’ve only ever felt truly alone,
when loving the wrong person.
The dark thought, oh the shame.

Pleasure moments hang upon the crest of a wave,
as easy as the paintings hung on the walls of the tattoo shop,
this feeling felt permanent like the tattoo ink on a forearm.

A scar for life,
in your light I learn how to love.
Are you jealous of the ocean’s generosity?

As easy as the feeling washed over my aura,
it is now a permanent fixture within my soul.
Love is a feeling!

The sun began to hide from the day and as it caught fire,
it drowned itself in the sea.
Who has mistreated you?

Mother Nature used the colors floating on the surface of the ocean,
to create a vivid finger painting across the sky.
Humankind is being led along an evolving course that directs the inner dream.

This is proof that love does exist! !!!

And that, is

As I paddled toward the shore,
my thoughts alternated between the moment and the memory of the night we spent under the stars.

It was there,
in the shadow beneath the moon,
I realized our suffering is the same.

And that, is

Pink Floyd played on,
the rain washed past hurts away,
walls crumbled down and the heart shed its skin.

The days marched on,
the once two lost souls were made whole.
Maybe we spoke to soon?

What do I know about love you say? Love is a feeling. Love does not exist based on length of time in knowing someone you fool. How can you tell me this isn’t love? Love is what makes you feel alive! So fucking A L I V E. It is that rapture of feeling alive where love and life exists.

And that, is
You fool …

A Spanking by Mother Nature Herself


It’s a thick wave no matter what the size and it’s name clearly dictates the force it will bring as the bottom falls away and the lip hammers down in knee-deep water. The paddle out is short.  A heavy over vertical drop can throw surfers off-balance and if you hesitate for one moment, consequences will be paid. If you sit on the beach long enough all sorts of entertainment can be had including surfers crawling out of the sea like the fish that were a part of the human evolution theory. The more time I spend in the ocean and how it calls me back each time we are apart for too long I start to believe this evolutionary theory to be true. Just the way sea turtles come back to their birthing spot year after year to birth their own eggs. Us surfers are drawn to the sea in the same way. Carrying broken boards and themselves as they bleed out the courage that carried them there in the first place.


A spanking from Mother Nature herself is what you will get even if you surf well. At this beach you are guaranteed, no matter what your surfing ability is, to feel a significant quiver reducing ocean power beating to keep you humbled for years to come. The first afternoon I stepped on this beach I remember the sound more than the site and I knew I wouldn’t be paddling out. Waste high barrels that day looked as dark as the coal that powers a freight train, which normally isn’t the case in Nicaragua, and the sound equally resembled a train coming down the track and as it shunts to a halt I can see why they clearly nick-named the spot THE BOOM.


I F you’re the kind of surfer that S E E K S waves that suck the sand off the bottom and throws it over head on any given normal day in shallow knee-deep water this is your wave. I F you are the kind of surfer that S E E K S hallow waves that can knock your eyes out of your skull and hold you down till you beg for mercy, then you have probably already been here. For those of you who haven’t and are brave enough to go, this may just be your kind of wonderland, you sick twisted soul.


As I watched Pro Surfer Blake Jones rip turns as gracefully as if he was surfing a wave with no consequence my gaze turned down the long stretch of sandy beach only to see my two friends carrying our friend out of Mother Nature’s grip. Blood dripping down his back right calf and then before I could look away the wound opened up and like a fireman’s hose it force-fed the sea red. First thought was shark attack, but no, he didn’t make the drop. The wave threw him to the bottom of it’s floor like an angry child disposing of an unwanted doll and punished him for his poor selection. He landed on his fin and the force of the wave held him down as Mother Nature kept the beating coming until she decided enough was enough.


As we hauled his broken ass in the back of my truck to the hospital 45 minutes away, my mind raced back to the previous day I did paddle out but only to catch a boat. Standing on the beach my heart raced with much anxiety that I wasn’t sure if it was the four cups of crack coffee I had drunk at sunrise as the sound of thunder welcomed in the new day or if it was my intuition telling me don’t go!  My friends turned to me before paddling out, “You can make it Heidi, time the sets.”  As the tide kissed my ankles, knees quivering with fear I watched them one by one crawl into the boat. A powerful force inside of me overcame any rational thought and before I knew it I was being dragged into the boat.  


After our surf session only minutes away my friends saw the worried look on my face as we returned to the BOOM. As we jumped off the boat Matt turned to me, “I will paddle in with you Heidi, we will time it.” Paddling over, my friends went for it, catching a wave in. I started to paddle and a wave that didn’t look so big quickly doubled in size as it hit the sand bar, I instinctively ditched my board. My friend wasn’t quite as lucky, she didn’t make it over that wave and I watched her crawling out of the sea onto the beach like the fish that crawled out of the sea.


Later that night as her bikini bottoms hung in the shower with an inch of sand sandwiched in between the two thin layers we nervously joked about the after math of a BOOM beating and how we survived to tell the tale.


Life never stops demanding more and more, just as waves won’t stop coming. Learn which waves to surf and quit protecting yourself from that fear that is just part of who we are and go deeper. Waves have a way of stripping you from the illusion that you are untouchable. Practice being humble. The whole purpose of life can change with just a flicker of awareness and as soon as you begin to accept this knowledge, the sooner you will have freedom to be yourself. And go -surf the waves of karma!

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Karma has no Deadline

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Today I started preparing my garden. Planting real seeds but also seeds of intention, in the nursery and also in my heart center. This year I’m open to growing my own food and intentions of love, compassion, forgiveness, trust, authenticity, trust and truth. It’s not an easy path to walk, choosing to see myself in every person that exists on this planet. Knowing that our human qualities and mistakes are what truly connect our souls. My pain is your pain knowing and remembering we all suffer differently. Focusing on dissolving these borders and judgements will create more space for love.

Loving the unlovable is the journey of the hard road I’m prepared to travel.  Even if it means waiting in baggage reclaim to then literally drag it down cobblestone streets just to get a little bit closer to the destination in finding true love. I’ve been driving down dusty undeveloped dirt roads living in Nicaragua over two years now. I got this!

Love will find its way and it will grow like an unstoppable weed bringing forth abundance. And!!!! The pineapple I planted last year finally has a visible mini one already growing into its self. As to say, here I am! I’m a soul. I’m you. I’m me. A reflection of each other is what we truly see.


As each day passes my father’s expiration date or most would call it the anniversary of my father’s death gets farther and farther away but no amount of space or time could ever make up for the absence of someone we love. It would merely be wrong to try and find a substitute for the loss, it’s the gap in the longing to be filled that is a necessary suffering that must be felt and what truly binds us humans together. This gap remains empty until a healthy yet solid replacement of love can fill it, not even God or the Universe can fill this empty hole in my heart and they work to keep it unfilled in order to keep the communion alive even at the cost of pain. Keeping this gap open after a loved one has died is a way to store energy and this kind of accumulation of nothingness is where healing energy lives and thrives. After my father died I had the courage to start a new life because I knew that if tomorrow was going to be my expiration date I had no time to waste. So, in this gap resides a powerful physic-like energy that is expendable like money to attract abundance if the right intentions and patterns are spinning.


As I walked through the dry dead garden, witnessing it’s eagerness for new growth now that the rain has arrived, a thought crossed my mind. Humans do not have an expiration date like the store-bought chicken or milk that tells you when it will expire. Just like karma has no deadline. Our day will arrive unknowingly like a cold knock on the door that startles you from a dead sleep.

But will you be asleep? Are you sleeping now or are you awake? I don’t mean really sleeping … I mean are you really awake? Is your consciousness awake? Are you living a life that you love? Are you spending time with people who love you, support you, admire you and give you unconditional love? Unconditional love is the kind of love I’m seeking. The kind of love that is pure and not given based on something I can do for another or what they can do for me. The kind of love I speak of is given freely for no reason at all but just because each one of us has the ability to love. An equal exchange of energy.

Just as we practice yoga we must practice death and we must practice love. To practice death will teach us how to practice freedom. And if we are free, our love too will be free. Don’t be afraid if you hear the knock, be more afraid if you are sleeping through it day by day, ignoring the reality in which you really live. Fear does not know death’s first name just as a stranger does not know mine. A person who has truly learned how to die while living can only be born into everlasting freedom.

Your soul must be burned bit by bit and what you thought or ever felt was normal, needs to die right now and burn equally alongside your tattered soul. Let it go up in flames! I only want to be friends with people who truly know how to die as they inspire me to break down and grow again. Just like the compost in my garden. I used the broken down matter to start the new seeds that will produce food to feed my soul. I’m going to burn normal to bits and allow my soul to be born again, I do this often. Each day I confront my insecurities and abandon what most would consider “normal” one wave at a time. It wasn’t until I was fully broken open and burned down to the ground I rose up stronger and discovered my higher self.

People say that what we’re all seeking is a meaning for life. Do you agree?

I believe we are seeking an “experience of being A L I V E … so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.” That extreme state of happiness is what being alive feels like. If you are not living this more often than not, then you need to be willing to die in order to be born again.


Mother Nature is My Guru


Don’t wait for a perfect wave or a perfect moment, take a moment and make it perfect!

The waves were 4 – 7 feet today and I was so grateful and thankful for my new Album Surfboard that allowed me to duck-dive seamlessly through the never-ending waves and whitewash that just kept coming relentlessly. While I was out there, duck dive after duck dive I went through all the life lessons that surfing has taught me. After returning home from the beach, here is what I came up with.

These days, life seems to be a bit of a paradox and the more I know, the more I know I don’t know. I’ve been on this quest to unlock the hidden dimensions of my life and surfing is the key to the answers needed for a constant involution.

Being a Child of Nature, surfing has taught me some very valuable lesson’s that I apply in my every day life. There’s no better way to be a genuine seeker than to apply the lessons learned by Mother Nature herself.  She is my Guru.

The sea is where I see no boundaries between my energy and yours, between my energy and the waves. Consciousness is the potential for all creation. If you are connected to the source you will have unlimited resources to tap into it to create the life you truly want to live.  Like the ocean waves as they rise and fall, all energy comes from the source as the waves and us merge together, we return to it. Our awareness is all that changes in the journey from separation to the one reality.

Lesson 1:

Change is Constant

Each day in the ocean is different from the last. No two days and no two waves at a beach break are ever the same. Have you ever paid close attention to the seasons changing year to year and have you noticed with the global climate change it’s never the same? Nicaragua used to get rain in the beginning of May and it has yet to rain. It is the sudden expansion that counts when you meet your soul mate for the first time and can no longer deny that powerful connection and feeling, here we have tasted a hidden dimension beyond what our society deems reality. Things will change, it is only a matter of time. Don’t try to control it, just allow it.

“Surfing’s one of the few sports that you look ahead to see what’s behind.”

~Laird Hamilton

Lesson 2:

Know Where

You’re Going

Before you paddle out, set a course and get there safely staying out of people and harm’s way. The big sets that roll through are just obstacles that can come along unexpectedly but so do the small ones. Have an idea of where you’re going. Just as a single word can open your heart, a single wave can either make your day or break you. Set your course but remain open to changes, refer to Lesson 1. Mother Nature can change her mind at the last second so be prepared. When you are flung outside your boundaries, if only for a moment, you have tasted that hidden dimension.

“You can’t stop the waves, but you can learn to surf.”

~John Kabat-Zinn

Lesson 3:

Let it all Hang out!

Whether you like yourself or not is irrelevant. When you’re in the water, especially a female surfing in a bikini it might happen to hang out. I rode a wave in and went to paddle back out, the sets just kept coming and here I was paddling out with one boob out not giving a damn, only caring about survival. Say to yourself, “This situation may be shaking me, but I am more than any situation.” Don’t resist or react to what other people might think of you. They have their own issues to deal with. Whatever your ego thinks is probably inappropriate. You can follow the wave of the ego as far as it wants to go, but notice it grow fainter as it fills the whole universe with love. And just as this wave disappears into infinity, and you can adjust your swimsuit you will become connected with your real self. This is a sudden glimpse of freedom from the ego that unlocks the hidden dimension within your soul.

“Surfing is such an amazing concept. You’re taking on Nature with a little stick and saying, ‘I’m gonna ride you!’ And a lot of times Nature says, ‘No you’re not!’ and crashes you to the bottom.”

~Jolene Blalock

Lesson 4:

Fall down 8, Get

Back Up 9!

When you fall down, try to do it gracefully and then get back up quickly. When you can laugh at yourself you lose the need to take yourself so seriously. Like a young carefree child whose innocence can never be defeated. Fall down, look up to the sky to see the infinity beyond it and then get back up! Getting back up shows the world that you know who you are. From this tiny sensation a whole new pattern emerges, one of strength and courage and the Universe doesn’t know what to do about that. You have a momentary glimpse of awareness and that single thread leads into a complete garment of color and texture. To master pure awareness, you must learn how to live it by getting back up when you fall.

“It’s all about where your mind’s at.”

~Kelly Slater

Lesson 5:

When in doubt,

Paddle Out!

Determination. Roll with the punches. Give it your all. Life is all about the paddle. Keep pushing through. Just listen to your intuition and heart along the way!

“Eddie would go!”

~Unknown author

Lesson 6:

One More!

You paddle for a wave thinking, “If I catch this one I will ride it in,” but after you get off you tell yourself, “Just one more and paddle back out!” Go for it. Wanting more is good. It is the need of something that creates an imbalance. So keep going but also know when enough is enough.

“Out of water, I am nothing.”

~Duke Kahanamoku

Lesson 7:

Stand Up For


If you don’t stand for something, you will fall for anything! Stand up for yourself. Today a local Nicaragua snaked several of my waves and would sit right on the inside just in front of me trying to intimidate me. Finally I told him off. Cursed at him in Spanish and the other locals had my back. Life and surfing calls for having a back bone. One must be strong when it’s necessary and don’t let people intimidate or bully you. Take a stand with integrity and grace and I promise, the right people will come to your rescue like a pack of wild dogs.

“One drop in is an accident, two is rude, three is a twatable offense.”

~Roger Sharp

Lesson 8:

Share. Don’t Be a

Wave Hog!

Take Turns. Just because you’re the best surfer out there doesn’t give you the right to hog all the waves. You don’t own this shit! Mother Nature created these waves for all of us to enjoy. Share, take turns and encourage others to enjoy the ride. Life is about sharing it with other like-minded people. If you see someone sitting on the shoulder for ages and they haven’t gotten a wave because you’re always in the peak, then back off, is it going to kill you to give up one wave? Sharing is caring. To love someone is subtler than to resent them and push them away. To accept someone is subtler than to gossip about them. To see someone without judgement is subtler than criticizing them. To share with someone is subtler than being selfish. Favor the subtler sides and these people in your life. Only if you value it, it will grow.

“It’s like the mafia. Once you’re in – you’re in. There’s no getting out.”

~Kelly Slater

Lesson 9:

Be Bigger Than

The Waves!

When you see someone else making big mistakes, be a good example and be the light house that will lead them safely out of the dark.

There are three kinds of waves that roll through during most days just as there are three kinds of friends in your life.

1.) Those who leave you alone, the smaller waves on the inside.

2.) Those who hurt you, the massive closeout sets that roll through and…

3.) Those who help you, those perfect waves that make you look like a rock-star and give you confidence to go back for more.

Determine who these friends and waves are and choose them wisely. The friends and waves that leave you alone are the ones that are just doing their own thing and staying out of your way. Nothing wrong with that. The waves and friends that can hurt you want your situation to stay the same because they do not have your well-being at heart. Those waves and friends that help you grow and make you look like a rock star have the strength and awareness of their own than you posses by yourself. Ask these friends, the ones who help you to join you in this paddle we call life. Let these people join you in your quest for growth, let them be a bigger part of your life.

“Surfing’s the source. Can change your life. Swear to God.”

~Patrick Swayze

Lesson 10:

Don’t Take Anything

Too Seriously!

Laugh and have fun out there. Have you ever seen those agro surfers out in the line up punching the water when they miss a wave, trying to pick a fight if someone gets in their way. They look like a bunch of jokers, give me a break. Let’s cheer each other on and have a laugh. I love to goof around out there on smaller days and even when it is bigger, paddle over to someone and strike up a brief conversation about how gnarly the waves are. Connection is key and we are all connected to each other and the innate oneness and having someone else to share that with makes it so much better!  Some people take life and surfing way to seriously. We need to have each others backs out there and I’m more inclined to try to save someone if they weren’t a jerk when I paddled out.

“I surf to get tan.” ~Shane Dorian

“The best surfer out there is the one having the most fun.” ~Duke Kahanamoku

Lesson 11:

Don’t Fight It!

If you struggle and resist, that’s when you get hurt. Learn to let go, timing is key! When a massive close out set rolls through and you can’t quite make the duck dive, don’t fight against the wave washing you to shore, just flow with it. Next time, just go deeper! Suffering is pain that we hold onto. Anywhere that life hurts mean we have locked ourselves into some kind of false identification.

“Waves are not measured in feet and inches, they are measured in increments of fear.”

~Buzzy Trent

Lesson 12:

Go Deeper!

Deeper is better in all areas of life, especially spirituality. Get your minds out of the gutter! When you nail a perfect duck dive, only a surfer knows the feeling, it feels better than sex!  So let’s go deeper into the link between suffering and unreality. Stop grasping and clinging to the unreal. Once you stop pretending to know what is real, things fall into place automatically. Life never stops demanding more and more, just as the waves won’t stop coming. So learn to surf and let’s quit protecting ourselves from what we fear is part of who we are and just go deeper. Waves have a way of stripping you from the illusion that you are untouchable.  Be humble. The whole purpose of life can change with just a flicker of awareness and as soon as you begin to accept this knowledge, the sooner you will have freedom to be yourself. Ooooohhhh that’s deep!

“Surfing is very much like making love. It always feels good, no matter how many times you’ve done it.”

~Paul Strauch

Lesson 13:



We all want to find our soul mate, a connection to Mother Nature, our Life’s Purpose and a career that would be most fulfilling. Love is the answer to any question. Gratitude is what me must have for this life and one another and respect should be given to nature! Now go … surf the waves of Karma!

“I think when a surfer becomes a surfer, it’s almost like an obligation to be an environmentalist at the same time”

~Kelly Slater

I’m going to end the lessons with the number 13. Thirteen was my Father’s favorite number and he drowned a few years ago, bless his soul. I feel connected to him when I’m in the water as I’m certain this is where his beautiful spirit and energy spends most time, probably trying to keep me safe. You never know what experiences the person sitting next to you on the bus or paddling out beside you has gone through. Share a laugh, a smile and some love. Just like Kelly Slater said, “we are all in it together.”

Safety First, Always


This applies to surfing and life. Have some self-respect. Be safe in ALL situations, including  sexual partners. haha. Be careful out there, don’t be a jackass and follow Surf Etiquette and Rules, if you don’t know them –that’s what friends and Google is for.


A Child of Nature


I’m always dreaming with my eyes wide open and the dreams I have create my daily reality. Not needing much to set me free, somewhere in nature is where you will most likely find me.


Ocean breezes blow open the window to my soul but it used to be mountain top breezes that did the same.  It doesn’t matter where in the world you are, GO OUTSIDE!  Since the day I can remember my parents couldn’t get me to come in before the sun set and I always smelled of the earth.


I am a child of nature.


Nowadays my favorite time of the day is watching the sun rise. Each day I feel the earth squish between my toes whether it is sand or jungle dirt. Staring into the sky is a daily occurrence for me as I’m always watching the moving clouds or the sunset paint the sky.  A shooting star is an opportunity to make a wish and I wouldn’t miss it for the world.


Just as I write this blog I’m sitting outdoors listening to the birds chirp, the monkeys howl and my cat Monti just ran by with a mouse squeaking in his mouth. Eeeew. Geckos are my noisy roommates, and are just as part of the house as the positive energy that surrounds it.


For me, I have to allow my body to love what it loves.


Whoever you are Mother Nature offers itself over to your imagination.


Amongst the simple beauty of nature is where I’m most happy. If you ever feel afraid, sad, lost, just go outside somewhere you can be alone with Mother Nature, she knows how to comfort the loneliest heart.  Remember, tears are only water and water nourishes the trees, the earth, your garden and anything you want to grow. It’s in the midst of Mother Nature’s simple beauty you will find peace within.


“A human being is a part of the whole called by us universe, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feeling as something separated from the rest, a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty.” -Albert Einstein


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*All of the nature yoga images were taken by me on a 10 second timer. Come do a photo shoot with me! Let’s play!

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