There is No Other Pain Like Loosing a Soul Mate


Dear Soul Mate, my home is your home, the door is open and so are my arms to welcome you home when you arrive. I don’t want to think. I just want to feel. Let’s live in the moment resembling the life Mother Nature intended for our souls to unite.

Being happily single for three years has made me look at friendships and relationships in a way I had never thought of before.

Living in Nicaragua has it’s challenges and finding solid friendships, true love, soul mates, or twin flames has been one of them. Since love comes and goes as quickly as the airplanes fly in and out of Managua International Airport and as freely as the tide washes upon the beautiful sandy shores of the Pacific Coast I have been fortunate to have met many people in the midst of their seeking that could easily be my soul mate. Most travelers come for a week, some return year after year and some never leave like me. The ones that stay are equally seeking. Living a perpetual vacation is a lifestyle that every one dreams about but earning a living from a never-ending staycation isn’t easy nor is it attainable for most. Some of the most creative, talented, giving, loyal, loving, people have crossed my path and I feel so grateful for this life and them. Bless your souls.

Soul mates …

Recently I was driving to Managua, three hours from the town of San Juan del Sur where I live and me and a friend got onto a fun topic of soul mates. The topic of love came up during the long drive and the question was, “Do you believe in one life love partner, one soul mate or several?” As my friend and I debated back and forth we ended up agreeing to disagree. My friend believes that we only get one chance, one  opportunity to meet that one true love of our lives, he believes we have only one soul mate and he is searching for his day in and day out but also sitting back enjoying the daily moments trusting his soul mate will appear when the timing is right.

In my past life, life before my parents got divorced and my father died I too commonly believed that we were meant to only have one soul mate or life partner but the more I get to know my own soul the more I feel differently. Soul mates tend to find each other during their respective pursuits and seeking of their soul missions. Have you found your life purpose? Have you asked yourself in each difficult situation “what lesson is my soul trying to learn?” We recognize a soul mate by the supreme level of comfort and security we feel with the person. Have you ever met someone and instantly felt a connection? Only spending minutes, hours or a week together but it feels so natural as if you have known them in a past life. How else could it be this easy? Your energy feels so aligned with this person that if you get close enough to them physically you could feel the electric current that pulses through their bodies directly into yours without even touching? We are made of energy.

I’ve heard your soul mate is supposed to be someone who you have spent lifetime after lifetime with in an endless exchange of love and relationships and have finally found each other again. YAY! Such a beautiful thought. How else can we explain this type of freedom in a new relationship? It is said that with your soul mate it isn’t surprising if you experience a natural affinity, a deep deep friendship, maybe love, intimacy, compatibility and a shocking electrical current that could light up New York city for years. In honesty I never heard anyone say that but I just made it up as these are some of the most recent energy exchanges and connections that have lit up my soul. My recent twin flame has been someone who is most like me in every way as if I’m looking into a mirror. And because I love myself and my life I have the same love for them instantaneously allowing for a seamless transition into my life without any questions asked.

Don’t let fear or sorrow become your soul mate.

You will be able to recognize these people with just one look and the energy will travel into your heart like sun rays shining down from the heavens and the unexplainable instantaneous chemistry and love will be undeniable as the magnetic field attracts you to one another without explanation. These are special people who go with the grain of your soul or like how a puzzle fits together seamlessly creating a beautiful picture. Pay attention to this energy and allow these people into your life so you may receive the gifts they have been sent to generously share with you. They are here for a purpose, a reason.

The Law of Attraction states that you will draw into your life whatever it is you think about. Be careful about what seeds of intentions you are planting and watering daily because over time you grow these thoughts negative or positive into your reality over time. If you have positive thoughts your intentions will grow into a beautiful plentiful garden producing abundance and love in your life. If you are thinking negative thoughts, even a negative thought as simple as “I really don’t like this car, I want a new one,” soon over time the car will break down and show you how much you really don’t like it and then you will have to replace it even if you don’t have the money to do so. Your wish has been granted! A voilà!

We manifest our thoughts into our currently reality just as an artist paints a canvas solely from imagination not even having to look at the physical scenery as it happens unconsciously.  Maintaining positive thoughts is the only way to live a happy life. Choose happiness just as you would choose a healthy salad for lunch off a menu in a restaurant. Order your emotions for the day just as you would your food. You have total control here. It is your life! Live in the moment, not in thoughts of the past or thoughts of the future but live here today in positive thought, love and intention. The past and future do not exist so why waste precious daylight hours on these thoughts. A soul mate will bring you into your own attentions so you can have the courage to change your life.

When you are with your soul mate you will feel pure freedom, pure joy, contentment (Santosha) and most importantly a great love for yourself allowing yourself to love them unconditionally. The job of our soul mates is to reflect back to us the areas in our lives that need the most healing so we may grow.  An equal exchange of energy comes from a place of love and truth. You should always be able to communicate openly and freely to your soul mate because the lessons of life will only help our souls to grow. Your soul mate has the introspection to help you become great! If you end up breaking up with your soul mate because you didn’t like something they may have said, take a good look within your soul and be honest with yourself. Are you going against the grain of your soul while trying to seek out your life purpose? Don’t deny this kind of connection as it is so powerful it could change your life into that endless summer or perpetual vacation you have been dreaming about with your eyes open for the majority of your life.

Learn how to control the ego, your mind and change negative thoughts into positive intentions that will manifest the life you’ve always wanted to live. Meditation, yoga, surfing, Pranayama (breath control) are ways to control the mind providing you clarity and power to live in the NOW.

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Hey Yoga Teacher, You won’t eat meat but you’ll snort a line of cocaine up your nose?


Ohhhh this blog is going to be a doozy but you know that I love writing about controversial topics because that is what you love to read! One of our guilty pleasures is being able to relate to another person’s dirty dark shadow so we don’t feel so lonely in our quest for change or staying comfortably in the dark. And that is the intention of this blog. The title means nothing, it is just to grab your attention and it worked!

SHIT. MUST. CHANGE! Turn on the light!

Are you living in balance? Are you doing your best? Can you do better?

After I did my yoga teacher training in 2010 my life changed. From this point, life was no longer as I knew it. I had to work on changing old habits and patterns. Yes, I had to do the dirty work, I’m still doing it and isn’t easy! I could not go back into the world and live the same way physically and consciously after an involution like that had taken place. I was awake. I was alive. I was present. I had all the tools I needed. I was ready to do shit!

I will admit, each new step taken since has not been an act of skipping down the yellow brick road under a blue sky with a shit eating grin totally oblivious. I have been driving dusty dirt roads in an undeveloped country in a beat up truck without a road map or a sign to point me in the right direction and when I’ve gotten lost I stopped to ask for directions, totally lost in translation! Unfortunately life does not come with a GPS with an automated voice in your first language to say, “Hey loser, you’ve did it again, you’re lost, you’ve gone the wrong way!”

I recently attended my second Yoga Teacher Training, don’t ask why I would torture myself again because doing my Yoga Teacher Training the first time around broke me wide open physically, emotionally and mentally but then like a Phoenix I came soaring out of the ashes with courage ready to create a new life and that is what I did. Because the most valuable lesson that I have learned in life to date is that difficult times help us grow and the only thing we need to know is the answer to this question, “what is the lesson my soul is trying to learn?”

So, I thought doing the training twice, essentially, being broken open a second time would only be an even greater transformation. I was ready, bring it! WHOMP. Not the case. I quickly found out not all Yoga Teacher Trainings are created equally. Surfers in the lineup had heard the tales and asked me each time I paddled out when the next Yoga party was. This snapped me back to reality and I thought, SHIT, something must change! Yes, I had time to surf and this is where I would escape. My priority at this training became learning to surf and spending time in the ocean because I knew the lesson my soul needed to learn at this point in my life would be best learned from Mother Nature herself. “What lesson does my soul need to learn from this?” I needed to learn that we have a responsibility as teachers and not turning a blind eye or feeling guilty for speaking the truth is necessary!!!! The ocean taught me that change is inevitable. Change is the only constant that exists in this world. Water cannot be stopped because when it runs into an obstacle, it just goes around it with courage flowing and nurturing constantly.

Now, what we do in our own time is no ones business, right? Right! But I’m here today, not to reveal all the dirty dark secrets that happened at this training, or to tattle tale on myself or all the other naughty yoga teachers out there but to just openly say it and to serve as a reminder of some necessary changes needed within the Yoga Industry.  Look in the mirror, look at each other. I’m doing this too! THINGS MUST CHANGE! We must change! Mother Nature told me to share her wisdom and so I’m her voice today. “Change is good. Change is constant.” If you struggle against change like fighting against a breaking wave in the ocean, you will get hurt. If you go with the flow of nature you are more likely to survive the changes that will happen inevitably. We must learn the lessons our souls need to learn and then make a conscious choice to change.

A Teacher is a Teacher regardless of the material being taught. Students turn to us to learn something. Human nature is judgmental. We have egos. As Yoga Teachers we speak to this. Students are watching us even when we are not in a studio teaching, other Yoga Teachers are watching too! They watch you when you walk down the street thinking you may know more about yoga, life, the universe and the real meaning behind the Bhagavad Gita and probably think your buddy-buddy with Patanjali himself. It doesn’t matter if you are miles away from the studio or your mat, you are still a Teacher in everyday life. We need to take our practice out of the studio and off the mat into our world, our lives should be a mindful moving meditation.  Otherwise it’s just smoke and mirrors. It’s like the little guy behind the curtain in the movie Wizard of Oz scaring the crap out of people, instilling unnecessary fear but if you pull the curtain back and reveal what’s really going on here,  a poser is revealed. A small bald man with no self-confidence, grace or integrity. Don’t be this guy!

Yes, Yoga Teachers get you to pose but you pose for yourself because no one else is watching in class because students are all focused on themselves. Yoga is hard. No one said it was going to be easy, life isn’t easy, surfing isn’t easy! Yoga is a lifestyle. But yoga helps to make life easier! Yoga is an internal practice to evolve the self and it is a tool to help control the mind not just for the purpose of an hour in a studio but so you can take this out and apply it in your life and the world.

Teachers, no matter what kind (Moms, Dads, Yoga Teachers, University Professors, Kindergarten Teachers, Life Coaches, Counselors, Mentors) are leaders in our society. How do you lead others?

Who do you want to be? What matters most to you? What do you want to teach people? How will you share your light? How will you walk the walk and talk the talk? What do you want to create? How will you love? How will you forgive? How will you teach?

Students of Yoga come to our Yoga class not only because they want a physical practice but once an involution sparks their curiosity it sets them down a path seeking much more. Essentially we teach them Yoga Postures (Asana) on a mat, Meditation, hopefully some Pranayama, some Chanting, throw in a few words related to the History of Yoga to carry on the tradition or to feed our own egos so we sound smart, speak of energy and the Chakras because that shit is super cool but that IS the match that lights the fuse and sets off a bomb in that student’s head that starts to disassemble the ego! BOOM!

Yoga Teachers do not just teach Asana on a mat, any monkey can do that! Might as well go to cross-fit! It is the deeper teachings that most students seek out. Students are seeking a leader, a guru, an awake present person that shares light. Or should we just call it Stretching Class? Maybe more guys would come!!! haha. Joke. As Teachers we must embody this responsibility and start walking the walk and talking the talk. We live in a spot light. Be Transparent. Be authentic!

No, personally I’m not perfect, this is also a reminder to myself.  Each day I strive to live a simple life by sharing my home and teaching others how to make small changes in all aspects of their life. Sure, I get caught up too but I make small changes day by day. My home is open, come see for yourself. It doesn’t mean we have to be perfect, but always remember, someone is always watching, people are always talking and at the end of the day, we are all connected and this is our opportunity to share our gifts and our light.

We need to teach each other that love is necessary, compassion is necessary, kindness is necessary, forgiveness for each other and ourselves is necessary and after finding our purpose we need to help others find theirs. Give as much as you can. Everyone deserves to be happy! Find your purpose because it is your gift and then it is your responsibility to share it with the world.

Teach from your heart. Learn from your mistakes and teach that to your students too so we can grow ourselves and grow one another. Consciousness. Oneness. We are in this together. We know right from wrong, let’s not complicate things.


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Living Santosha! Yoga isn’t the answer, Stop the bullshit! Rethink your Life.


The best day of my life was when I woke up! I had discovered beyond any doubt that my thoughts and feelings were creating my life. Learning to love my life with my whole heart (Santosha) helped me to attain more.

Today,  I woke up on the right side of the bed. Well, every day I do that, because I love the life I’m living. As I rolled out of bed I  stepped over a cockroach on my way to the bathroom, brushed my teeth, washed my face then gracefully stumbled into the kitchen. Made a pot of chai tea excited to try the brown rice milk my bestie made the night before.

While waiting for the water to boil, I took a peek at the seeds we are sprouting in recycled jars, looked out the window and felt a cool breeze come through the screen, brrrrr. Now, with a steaming cuppa tea, I’ve gone back to bed to take advantage of this cool weather not often the case in Nicaragua. No longer needing the fan because the sheets are still warm from the night before. I cozy in, enjoying the aroma of clove and cinnamon feeling the rhythm of my beating heart, a gentle reminder of this miracle to have another chance to make this day better than the previous.  

Feeling grateful for all the wonderful things in my life I consciously quiet my thoughts and direct this energy into a constructive channel and start to write this blog, enjoying a few more days of pure solitude before new guests arrive and appreciating that my time in the ocean this afternoon will be spent paddling out beside my soul mate, connecting to nature, catching some waves and meditating on my surfboard. This is my life.

Listening to the sound of the wind as it whips through the trees I’m reminded of a busy mind I was once unable to control. My thoughts would race from one memory of the past like a sprinter running a fifty meter dash, then quickly to the next memory like tagging a relay race runner onto the next memory and then jumping ahead to a future thought that didn’t yet exist and like always it skipped the present moment. The present, without thought is where all the good stuff can be felt, heard, contented, tasted and appreciated. I hear a meow, reminding me to be present even with these passing thoughts as I write them down.

The rising sun starts to peek through the transparent curtain creating a beautiful green glow as it dances with the breath of mother nature. I sigh and take a deep breath of clean Nicaragua air and start to match my inhales to my exhales. Ahhhhh, yes, yes, finally….I have found Santosha! Truly, living Santosah (contentment) on all levels has led me to real happiness.

What is the best way to put forth the most positive energy?

Yoga isn’t the answer to a happy life but yoga and my many teachers including the teacher within taught me how to quiet and control my thoughts and breath so I can live in the moment and appreciate all the beauty that surrounds me in a crazy confused world. Some days it can be a real challenge.

How do I do it? Do the things you enjoy!

“Only do things that you enjoy, do what you want to do! What the fuck do you really want to do?” ~Joe Rogan

The conception of my company Seeking Santosha did not come from living Santosha but the name came to me at a time in my life where so much chaos and suffering was thriving due to my own unnecessary thoughts. Stop HERE. Appreciate this moment if it is happening to you right now because it is here in this moment we can learn and grow so much.

I was seeking Santosha. I had planted a seed with an unconscious intention to grow a garden of creativity, love, compassion and contentment from that day forward. I knew I needed to find my life purpose and nurture my soul where my restless mind could find some peace from the endless dance party dirtying up the dance floor of my mind. It’s like banging on a closed-door but through the window you can see your annoying neighbors throwing a big wild party you weren’t invited to and all you want is some peace and quiet so you can sleep.

I knew if I could quiet my thoughts and the words of others trying to tell me how to live my life I would finally be able hear the whispers of my soul and in this stillness my heart would be a compass and a true guide so my feet could start walking in the right direction down a path towards purpose and a life I really wanted to be creating. Each conscious step took courage but with each passing day and each focused breath I knew I was getting closer and my actions became unconscious. I stopped living and started creating.

Easier said than done, right? True, that’s why I’m saying it!

But with patience and compassion for yourself you have to start somewhere, so I did.

I started by doing yoga poses on a mat in a studio with a select group of close friends and spiritual teachers. I was guided through meditation and pranayama and while the physical practice made my body a strong vehicle for my spirit an internal transformation started here unconsciously. Nowadays I don’t go to a studio because I live in the jungle and have my own quiet space and after completing my yoga teacher training I do my own practice, meditation and pranayama. Yoga is not the answer to my happiness or my life. I do some form of yoga every day, I live a healthy lifestyle by controlling my breath, my thoughts, through meditation in my home studio, bedroom or on my surf board while connecting to nature. I connect with nature daily to keep in harmony with the oneness of all things and beings including my myself and the universe, or call it God if you must, a higher power, our maker.

Yoga is the method by which the restless mind is calmed and the energy is directed into constructive channels. Imagine a river that has been controlled and properly harnessed, this creates a vast revision of water, it prevents famine and provides an abundant resource. So, the mind, when controlled provides a reservoir of peace and generates abundant energy for our uplift. Meditation ignites the sleeping artist within and sparks my creativity, it is here in the silence that new ideas emerge.

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Religion and yoga can give you inspiration but it isn’t the answer because it puts you on a single one lane road. Trust me, you don’t want to be stuck here. Don’t get attached to ideologies.

Santosha is not needing more, buying more, consuming more – it is not what North American society is teaching -MORE MORE MORE but merely being content with what you have. Unless we change this we will not evolve. When you live in the moment you appreciate what you have.  Once you are happy in this place, your energy and dreams will start to attract other opportunities to you that will provide you with adventures, money, abundance, love and give you more because your soul is a magnet. You can’t fool the universe so take care of your self and be the most evolved version of yourself that you can be then you will be living Santosha, contentment which will attract even more beauty.

It is okay to seek …go ON just be aware of what you invest in, partake in and consume along the way. Balance and devotion are key because if “You’re in the midst of a war, a battle between the limits of a crowd seeking the surrender of your dreams, and the powers of your true vision to create and contribute to all that is good. It is a fight between those who tell you what you cannot do, and that part of you that knows and has always known, that we are more than our environment; and that a dream backed by and unrelenting will to attain it, is truly a reality with an imminent arrival.” ~Anthony Robins

I wake up each day excited to CREATE my day. You’ll love what you’ve got with all your heart today, and you will be ready for more tomorrow. And the next day.

Watch this video by Joe Rogan and be inspired.

Be the most evolved version of you that you can be. In the words of Joe Rogan …

1.) Put healthy foods in your body, eat many vegetables and the right amount of protein, a lot of water. Stop drinking soda.
2.) Stop the bullshit!
3.) Get a better idea of how your body feels when you treat it healthy. When it’s moving it’s flowing. Meditate.
4.) Be nice. Be cool to people. Smile. Tip well. Do the most you can. So what you want to do with your life. Do what you really want to do. If someone else is doing it, you can do it too! Follow the path you really feel pulled to.

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One Love

One Love doesn’t mean love one person, One Love means love everyOne.

When I think about love I think about the love I have for mother nature and the connectedness I share with everyone and everything on this planet. Love should be celebrated every day.

Love.  Bigger than any wave.


Love. More powerful than fear.


Love is like an ocean.

Duck dive

Love can be impermanent as a wave rising.

Dual Waves

Love can come and go like the tides rise and fall.

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Love is free like a sunrise and a sunset.


Love should be unconditional not conditional.


Mother Nature shows us the rising sun and the setting sun each day.


Do you tell the people you love as often as the sun rises and sets?


Love is free to give. Love is free to receive.


Love requires courage. Being loved gives one strength.


Love is a risk but well worth it.


Love is meant for everyONE.


“I have decided to stick with love. Hate is too great a burden to bear.” – Martin Luther King Jr.

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Peace, love, happiness and all that hippie sh*t!!

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I woke up this morning eager to write. Well, actually I woke up this morning because it was impossible to sleep, who am I kidding. Oh the simple troubles in paradise and trying to figure out a way to find balance, love, peace and happiness even when things are not perfect takes practice itself. This time of year in Nicaragua brings some crazy wind and all this energy gets things stirring inside of me. Normally I feel so at peace here in the jungle with a light breeze keeping the constant sweat slightly cooled but when the wind picks up intensely my sleeping patterns are disrupted and my thoughts are restless. My mind resembles a wind turbine at high-speed. It is very challenging to meditate when it sounds like the jungle is about to crash down on my roof and surf boards and gardening tools are getting thrown across the landscape.

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On a positive note, the wind farm in Nicaragua located only 20 km from my home generates electricity at a 39.9 MW. It is a renewable power plant to meet energy deficit with clean energy. Here, Nicaragua is replacing fossil fuels with wind energy. It has reduced the dependency on oil imports and pollution -hooray! AND it has created 145 jobs for several local Nicaraguans during the construction and has led to 18 permanent jobs. So proud to call Nicaragua my home.

Before waking I was dreaming about nature, about surfing and when I opened my eyes and remembered my dream I reminded myself that being connected to each other and nature is to live in oneness and anything separate is an illusion and a choice. In order to evolve we need to dissolve boundaries. Boundaries being our beliefs in thinking we are different from one another and special as individuals because we were told that by our parents when we were children. In actuality we are the same because every person’s needs, wants and desires are the same. We are here on this earth to experience with our five senses and to figure out our dharma, our purpose. I’m going to write anther blog about that but first let’s just speak about peace, love and happiness.

Peace, love and happiness are not things we can wish or hope for. These are things that we can make and cultivate within our own self and our own life. Peace, love and happiness are things we can do, things we can make, and are things we can give away that won’t cost us a cent. We all possess this. Do you see the similarity now?

We all have eyes so we can see the best in people. We all have a heart that is able to forgive the worst, can heal and love again. We all have a mind that can be trained to be silent and to forget the bad. We all have a soul that can live on forever and never lose faith in the oneness, the Universe or if you want to call it God.

Each day that we wake begins a new and having another day is like a second chance to make this one better than the last. Today is a new day of energy, love, peace, happiness and ideas just waiting to be created!

We all have been gifted this choice. Like the wind farm in Nicaragua that generates clean energy, so can you! Let your wind energy generate peace, love and happiness!

Come Seeking, you might just learn something 🙂

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Adios 2012! Breaking up with the old year, old patterns and haters.

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At the end of 2012 many of my friends said, “I wonder what 2013 will bring, 2012 wasn’t the best year.”

Friends, it’s not about what the new year will bring. Instead, ask yourself …
“What will I create in 2013?” And then decide, are you willing to do the work to create the life you always wanted?

2012 was my year for living up to what I had started in 2011. Being a member of the International Yoga Community for a solid year at this point made me realize it was a high priority to fully embrace the old saying “walk the walk and talk the talk” off my mat. Being a yogi means to have a practice on and most importantly off the mat with a HUGE personal responsibility to teach others in all areas of life, not just in a yoga studio. This is the kind of teacher I am. Sure, I can teach you how to balance on your head or how to sit cross-legged and stare at your third eye to clear your mind but what I really want to teach you is how to live and how to create a life you can fall in love with.

So, in 2012 I planted a garden believing that sustainability is a necessary ingredient for my future. Growing my own food proved to be very rewarding and inspired others to do the same. Doesn’t sound like much but I could never keep an ordinary house plant alive! ha! Volunteering my time in the Nicaragua community continued and helping a few individuals through karmic actions enabled community members to live out their personal dreams. Bringing a group of twenty-seven individuals to Nicaragua in partnership with a Vancouver yoga studio helped raise the love and vibration of a war-torn country and provided several jobs for many locals enabling them to feed their families. Connecting with nature daily taught me more than how to surf, overcoming my fear of drowning but never forgetting my father’s fate. Living more and more like nature every day, unconcerned about time and staying connected to my self. Traveling taught me many valuable lessons about the importance of friends, patience, love and the celebration of food. My adventures gave me an opportunity to practice my yoga off the mat and by sharing my photography and writing it inspires others to travel and live from their hearts also embracing other cultures. Together we saw the oneness and similarities in others growing the love and vibration. Living each day to its fullest sparked joy in others to do the same – it also sparked some hate.

So now I must break up with the old year, old patterns and haters.

I’m not looking back to 2012 other than for the purpose of this blog. That time has passed so I must break up with 2012 in order to build a new relationship and foundation with 2013. As each day and each new experiences pass, I get better at recognizing my old patterns that neglect me from finding happiness and love. Breaking up with haters is necessary. Instead of trying to change someone’s opinion, I say what I need to say and move on. I really don’t like the word hate, it breaks my heart but I must use it to make a point.

Definition of ……”Hater” – A person that develops a strong dislike for another, solely basing their own opinion on personal judgment rather than objective merit. A person that simply cannot be happy for another person’s success. So rather than be happy they make a point of exposing a flaw in that person. Hating, the result of being a hater, is not exactly jealousy. The hater doesn’t really want to be the person he or she hates, rather the hater wants to knock some one else down a notch.

The more haters hate, the more I create. You know the kind of people I’m referring to.  Lately I have experienced the “hate” from other yogis due to the life I have created for myself and the true fact is, they don’t hate me, they don’t like themselves and are not satisfied with the life they have created for themselves. While they’re busy disliking me, I’ve taken that energy and started loving me even more, evolving and growing my awareness and consciousness beyond the fourth dimension to escape the bullshit.

As I write this, two influential friends of mine come to mind that experience the “hate” on a daily basis.  One is a pro surfer, ex pro surfer as of today and the other is a well-known Vancouver yoga teacher turned Glee-musician with an angelic voice and spirit that would make anyone rejoice. Both are my inspirations to being different, my passion being my purpose and for teaching people to “be different.” They have created truly unique lives for themselves but each day they encounter people in the industry who are not supportive.

Together we can create more than an individual can create alone if we can all just move past our egos for a moment to see how we can support one another to raise the vibration and consciousness. That’s it. I’m done with listening to the gossip, If you see me walk away when you are talking you will understand. The majority of 2012 I had no longer concerned myself with “he said, she said bullshit” but the end of 2012 got the best of me and I found myself listening to it. Let’s not talk about “people,” instead, let’s discuss ideas, the universe, the oneness —THE LOVE!

Unfortunately some people get caught up in the small details of a murky pond while I’m swimming in the big picture of the open ocean literally, flowing like water, connecting with nature and being impermanent like a wave rising because I know nothing in life is certain except for change. Like waves, life rolls on. When I see an obstacle, I don’t bully my way through to find a solution, I just go around it, change course, unaffected still flowing. The ocean cleanses my aura and heals me every time I paddle out into it.

What are you doing to rejuvenate your soul each day?

Time is merely an illusion, just ask Mother Nature, she doesn’t wear a wrist watch. Mother Nature and I see things as an exchange of energy, unconcerned about time.

Surfing, meditation, yoga and adventure/travel are my tools for maintaining a clear mind, what are your tools? As “we” head into the New Year let’s focus on spending time with the right people.  Are you with me? My photography, writing, and lifestyle are the ways I create beauty in my own life from my personal experiences and then I share it with the world in order to inspire others. I’m hardly making a living, I’m not making money off of this, I’m getting by but I know for certain what my life’s purpose is.

From today, I will not be concerned about being the popular person in the crowd. Choosing not to go out with my friends on New Years Eve allowed me to wake up this morning with a clear mind, ready to create something amazing for this day!

My purpose in this world is to share what I have learned so we can all evolve and grow together.

Do you spending time with people who inspire and uplift you to be your best self?
Do you believe in the innate oneness of all things and beings?
Do you walk the walk AND talk the talk?
Are you doing your best in this very moment?
What are you doing to live at your highest potential?
What are you providing other to live at their highest potential?
Do you have dreams?
Do you have the courage to live out your dreams?
Do you support others who live out their dreams?
Do you hate or do you love?

As most of my good friends know, I have been living in Nicaragua for over 2 years now. It took a lot of courage to start my own business and live out my dreams. Thanks to those who have supported my business, my dreams and Nicaragua with your positive energy and love.

We can lift each other up, or we can tear each other down. What will you choose to do?

Let’s move through 2013 with a higher consciousness and awareness for the oneness! Together we can create beautiful things!

Happy New Year!
¡Feliz año nuevo!


Click here to Read what I wrote last year about “To Resolution or Not to Resolution”

Click here and come stay at my house and let me inspire you!

Watch the video I just created and see how beautiful Nicaragua is!

Come on a Yoga Surf Retreat Adventure and start your year off right!

Yoga Retreat

A few highlights from 2012 ….

How do we change the world?

A shift in our consciousness is happening. Do you feel that?

I won’t get into the details of why or how…
my spirituality and personal beliefs might keep you awake at night.

The voices of the divine feminine and our spirit NEEDS to be resurrected so we can come into our true power, our potential and change the world. We need to help each other to achieve greatness. How do we change the world?

So how do we do this? First, ask yourself this question and be honest…

Who am I?

This is a question we all ask ourselves but have a hard time answering. Our egos get stuck with titles that do not serve us such as:

I am a mom.
I am a wife.
I am a an Account Manager.

You are MUCH more than that!

I’ll answer it and then, you should do the same:

I feel.
Therefore I am.
I have arrived and am dedicated to living in the moment, staying present. Personally, I’m interested in creativity and living a yogic lifestyle to inspire leadership in women.  I allow my feminine spirit to lead the way, being clear on my feelings guides me to where I truly want to go.
I listen to my heart.

Not getting caught up in the small stuff like – “did you see what she was wearing?” or “she’ll never break up with that jerk,” all of this gossip doesn’t serve me or you and I’ve learned that it is just a waste of energy.  I like to talk about ideas, not people.

Writing and talking about what I’m interested in passionately manifests my true intentions and dreams. Showcasing my strength in a feminine way is more attractive than acting like a man to prove it. I want to create!

I speak with authority when necessary trying to have a soft tone primarily. From time to time I refer to my friends by cute nick names and give lots of hugs and compassion on a daily basis. I want to have fun! I’m a dreamer.

If you invite me to a business meeting, I’ll show up on time and I’ll bring supplies, like chocolate and snacks and I won’t forget to ask “do we need anything else?” and suggest a solution like “how do we get there together?” Offering my solution to world problems through compassion, love and action.

I will continue to inspire women and anyone that will listen, to live in their highest potential.  I will share what I know by going through the archives of my life’s stories that have touched me, taught me, broken me and resurrected me in order to move you. I’m not ashamed, I’m human.

It isn’t a gift until you give it away, so here is my gift to you – with a pretty pink bow on top.

It’s your turn. Who are you?

How we do anything, is how we do everything.


On a recent flight I sat beside an American guy departing Nicaragua to return back to San Francisco. He was a nice looking guy so I entertained the small talk chit-chat but it grew into a much more interesting conversation once I discovered the reason why he was in Nicaragua. Jon Bloom works for a non-profit organization that connects people to lenders so they can receive small loans to start their own business. Doing this creates an opportunity for the individual with a goal to alleviate poverty in developing countries. Pure awesome! Nicaragua being one of the top 10 poorest countries in the world, I was moved by this and took his business card and promised to be in touch.

Rewind for a second, just days before I left on this flight my friend Amber came by for lunch and we were at my house discussing the Yoga DVD she was hoping to make but things were falling out-of-place with her investor and I could see how much energy she was expelling so I offered to help if things didn’t work out. I could see how much she wanted to fulfill her dream but she just needed a little money in order to do this. She said she would be in touch if things changed.

After the flight and while I was in Canada I received an email from Amber saying she needed a new investor. Remembering my recent conversation with Jon Bloom on the plane I felt compelled. I hadn’t mentioned this to Amber, I didn’t see the point at the time. So I said yes!

To make a long story short, we just returned from NYC where we went to produce Amber’s DVD Yogaeira. We were a team of five women that did a fantastic job from hair, makeup, lighting, filming, editing, supporting, producing, creating, moving and just living in the moment. All of us came together to work as a team to see a project through and most importantly to make Amber’s dream come ALIVE!

Now, with the finished product in hand, Amber turned to me and said, “Heidi, with my profits for the first year, I want to give 100% of it to Kiva. You inspired me by your willingness to give and gave me this opportunity and without your help I could not have done it. So now, I want to help others by supporting them with the portion of my profits because this is what the Kiva organization does.”  

Having forgotten now, three months later about Jon Bloom and Kiva, when I returned home from a whirl wind tour of Europe I saw Jon’s Kiva business card sitting on my open book shelf. It had fallen out of my book and my friend staying in my house placed it there for my eyes to see. Wow. Full circle. …. the universe, you little angel!

I will repeat this again …. How we do anything, is how we do everything.

It’s your turn,
Who are you?

What are you going to create? Your desires are your prayers.

If you are going to create, let’s just be honest here, you have to be a bit crazy.
Innovation, great, bold changes are the difference between mediocre and FUCKING AWESOME! Go with no agenda, don’t get stuck with a plan because more creative things may come up. Quit planning so the creative can happen!

There is a difference between denial and transcendence. You have to feel it, to heal it in order to release it. You need friends to help you. We have to have the same kind of courage, conviction and commitment behind our love that some people put behind hate. If we see ourselves as separate, we cannot live in peace. When someones mind thinks differently it effects everyone. I’m a wave, and I feel powerful and so should you but most people are like sunbeams from the sun thinking they are different but we are not. We are all the same, we are all connected to the body of the sun.

Be the inspiration you wish to see in this world. One love. Together we can build each other up, or we can tear each other down.  We don’t have to suffer if someone else is suffering. The way to HELP someone is to open yourself to someone! Allowing someone to be what and who they are is the best way to help. Trust is a form of strength with an open heart. Rise out of expansion not obligation.

Let’s support Kiva by purchasing Amber’s Yogaeira DVD!  A team of five women create Yogaeira™ the DVD by Amber Campion.

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